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I can't sleep.
It's gotten to that time of night where the nightmares are so vivid I don't need to sleep to see them, pictures painted on the eggshell curve of closed eyelids.
The desire to sleep, to be gone, to leave is present in all of me that is conscious and rational. It's in those sleepy remains of me that want to be okay, that want to focus forward.
But the feral creature that is more and more unearthing herself from my bones, from the unwinding, fraying edges of my DNA is awake. My muscles have knit together too tight, and I'd focus on breathing but the only thing to count with in the dark is my heartbeat, and that is pounding in my ears too-fast, furiously.
I can't sleep.
I can smell my own fear. I can smell it, an itching sort of smell that climbs over my shoulders and acquaints itself with the curve of my spine. There's a shaking far off, in my hand, my right arm, but I can't go there. I'm a torso, a nightmare, a cluster of screaming, panicking organs.
I am fear incarnate, terror personified.
I am locked in the dark, noisy silence, and I am going to die here for I cannot escape.
It's gotten to that time of night where the nightmares are so vivid I don't need to sleep to see them, pictures painted on the eggshell curve of closed eyelids.
The desire to sleep, to be gone, to leave is present in all of me that is conscious and rational. It's in those sleepy remains of me that want to be okay, that want to focus forward.
But the feral creature that is more and more unearthing herself from my bones, from the unwinding, fraying edges of my DNA is awake. My muscles have knit together too tight, and I'd focus on breathing but the only thing to count with in the dark is my heartbeat, and that is pounding in my ears too-fast, furiously.
I can't sleep.
I can smell my own fear. I can smell it, an itching sort of smell that climbs over my shoulders and acquaints itself with the curve of my spine. There's a shaking far off, in my hand, my right arm, but I can't go there. I'm a torso, a nightmare, a cluster of screaming, panicking organs.
I am fear incarnate, terror personified.
I am locked in the dark, noisy silence, and I am going to die here for I cannot escape.
Literature
Turn my words against me.
I want my words to take
root in your stomach and grow
up your esophagus, the calyx
of your tongue brushing the edge
of your teeth until the words blossom
from your lips in a slow
explosion of elegance, jawline
trickled with nectar, charming
hummingbirds and honeybees
with the promise of butterfly kisses.
Literature
Vaguely heart-shaped
. In another universe, who I am
gets dumped by a woman
who in another life
was Cleopatra.
Today I divine this by finding a small blackened potato
between my oven and counter,
vaguely heart-shaped, sprouting
pale arteries
of no use to me,
I think on an inexplicably dramatic
whim.
Literature
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death knocks on your
door with a crooked little grin
and tells you that he'd like
his tea with two sugars, please,
and that you'd better start packing;
but only bring your valuables
because he's got no room in his hearse
for remorse
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Not sure of the context of your situation, but I can definitely think of a few times when I felt like this. I hope that things right themselves for you soon.
Gems that shone brightly to me:
"on the eggshell curve of closed eyelids"
"feral creature"
Images/metaphors I've never heard before, and I love them. You really have a way with words.